Retah, will you still obey?
It is a beautiful day in Israel. We left Monday night from Johannesburg with a tour group. However, on Monday afternoon at 12h00 my office received a phone call from EL AL airlines asking if we are still going on with the tour? They tried to get hold of the travel agent that I used for the last 4 years, because our tickets were not paid for? No, this is not possible we said, because the tickets are already issued, we paid our deposit early in the year, and all the rest were paid in full a couple of months ago.
The end of the story is that the money was too big a temptation in the bank account and the airline was never paid. ‘Sorry Retah, I took the money and I cannot repay you’. What a shock, only our deposit was paid over to the airlines - the rest ($ 50 000) was to be paid again - and I had only an hour. Tinus and I looked at each other and started praying: ‘Abba Father', I prayed, ’please help us now with Godly Wisdom. How do I do this? Where do I get this money from?' We went to the court in heaven to present our case to our King. 'Satan stole from us Abba, he wants to stop this tour. What if we arrived at the airport with fake tickets?' My tears flowed and flowed. 'Abba, You asked me to do a Face to face conference in Jerusalem, Abba, do I stop this tour? How do I go on?' I hear my husband’s humble voice, ‘Abba Father, we choose to forgive her immediately, please grant this person repentance so that she may come to her senses.' (2 Tim 2:26).
I clearly hear my Abba's voice: ‘Will you still obey, Retah?'
We jumped up and phoned our auditor. ‘We are going to empty all our accounts - my business, Tinus’s business, credit cards - everything we have, please help us to know how and what we can do.’ All I knew was that the tour had to go on - Satan’s plans will not succeed. Within an hour it was done - I didn’t think it was possible.
The airline issued us with the correct tickets and there we were all on our way. I could not wait for the lights on the plane to be switched off – because then I knew my tears could flow freely. I looked out of the window and I saw all the stars. ‘Retah, how many stars are there?'
‘I don't know Abba, too many to count.’
'If 50 000 stars were taken, do you think it would make a difference to Me? It will not even be visible, because I am the great I AM. I AM the one who creates the stars. The same with that money, I AM your provider, and I AM will provide for you again, more than you have lost. Thank you for obeying my voice, thank you for pushing through and not quitting! It is the time where darkness will cover the earth, but I want my children to overcome.'
All my fears of how I was going to pay my personnel at the end of the month, how will I, I, I… just disappeared in the gentle calm presence of my King when He said ‘I AM’.
Two days before this happened Aldo wrote: ‘Satan hates Face to face’ and only now do I understand what he meant. Satan hates this conference and he wants to stop it.
This is day 2 of our tour and I received this text from Tinus this morning.
‘Retah, I bless you today with joy. Don't allow Satan to steal your joy. It is only money, and money comes and goes. But if this day is over, it is over. So please enjoy your day, and celebrate today. Retah, Abba is our provider, He will provide’. I read it with tears in my eyes. This is truth, I have to overcome!
This morning at Tel Dan Nature reserve I had a moment with Holy Spirit where I bowed down to drink some of the water that flows so freely and freshly from Mount Hermon. The water was pure, cold, and very sweet. Holy Spirit said to me, 'Retah, when you come with a spirit that is yielded towards Me, a spirit that is thirsty, a spirit that is dry, you will be able to drink of the living waters and thirst no more. So many times people drink of the bottled second hand revelation of others. I want my children to come to Me, Face to face and drink of My living waters.'
The next moment I saw a glimpse of myself in this water. 'Yes, this is where you will see yourself through My eyes.’ On my knees, on the rocks with my face in this cold mountain water I found myself very vulnerable. 'Yes, this is how I want you to come; humble, dependant and knowing that the water that I give makes all things new in your spirit. This is the water I want My bride to drink from.'
Ps 42: 1-11
As the deer pants for the water brooks,
So pants my soul for You, O God. My soul thirsts for God, for the living God.
When shall I come and appear before God?
My tears have been my food day and night,
While they continually say to me, ‘Where is your God?’
When I remember these things, I pour out my soul within me.
For I used to go with the multitude; I went with them to the house of God,
With the voice of joy and praise, with a multitude that kept a pilgrim feast.
Why are you cast down, O my soul?
And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God,
for I shall yet praise Him For the help of His countenance.
O my God, my soul is cast down within me;
Therefore I will remember You from the land of the Jordan,
And from the heights of Hermon, From the Hill Mizar.
Deep calls unto deep at the noise of Your waterfalls;
All Your waves and billows have gone over me.
The Lord will command His loving kindness in the daytime,
And in the night His song shall be with me— A prayer to the God of my life. I will say to God my Rock, ‘Why have You forgotten me?
Why do I go mourning because of the oppression of the enemy?’
As with a breaking of my bones, My enemies reproach me,
While they say to me all day long, ‘Where is your God?’ Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God;
For I shall yet praise Him, the help of my countenance and my God.
So many things crossed my mind. I realized how Satan wanted me to hurt and disappoint YHVH's children by saying, ‘The tour is off.’ But, in Him we will start having His nature, His integrity, His wisdom and His faith – Godly Faith.
Here in Israel we are going to all the high places to pray and intercede. Right now in the spirit, war is raging because of what is about to happen with the One World Order. Even in Jerusalem where two Palestinians entered a synagogue, and murdered five Israelis and injured four others, the results can be seen.
I know we are safe and protected.
Obeying His voice brings much joy to my heart!
Love to you out of Israel